Starting Over AGAIN

I lost 53 pounds 3 years ago and gained almost all of it back.  I've decided that gaining 41 pounds back it's time to get back on track.  I don't need to gain all 53 or more to make a change.  I often wondered how other people could lost so much weight and gain it back. After I lost all that weight I knew I would never go back.  It isn't so easy to keep weight off. Actually, once I got in the groove of losing weight it was much easier to do that than maintain it afterwards.  

 (Tell me why my husband still likes to take pictures of me even though I look horrible.  I think it is to rub it in and make fun of me because it can't be that he finds me hot and sexy like he says he does.  Seriously, do you see that ass, it's atrocious.)   

Do you wonder how that happened?  Why would someone spend the better part of a year getting healthy only to backslide and feel miserable again?  Good question and one that I hope to uncover because I don't want to do this again.  I believe that some people are naturally more active and move a lot and with others it is just the opposite.  For me I'm definitely the opposite.  I could sit and read or write for hours, or watch movies all day.  It really takes being purposeful to get me up and moving.  That being said, I love doing active things.  I even love exercising depending on what it is.  I just don't like to jump up and down, it give me a headache.  

It might interest you to know that I am 5'4" tall. I don't know how much I weighed in the picture above but I was on my way up the scale.  I'm about 181 now so that picture is either right around that or a little bit less.  I am small boned so I can gain weight and it not show up in clothes right away.  Honestly, I didn't realize how bad I looked that day.  I also didn't know until today (many months later) that my husband took this picture.  He's always doing that and it drives me crazy.  

So, I need to get back in shape and today is the day to start.  It's our anniversary.  We've been married 21 years and together 24.  How time flies.  I have 41 pounds to lose and I would like to have half of it gone by the end of the year (which is also right after my 46th birthday).  I'll be chronicling my journey here with notes and pictures.  I'm doing it more for me than you but if it can help someone then that is even better.